Sometimes I do wonder whether we have grown up or not. It seems and still feels like we are all still children.

These few days, I lost all sorts of feelings inside me, the only thing remaining is stoicism. The defiant feeling that stares at the monster called Pain in the face and shouts “You can’t hurt me you lil’ $*U)@!*($”

Human relationship. Fickle? Fragile, as my friend puts it. Or even meaningless. I am referring to friendship. Not that I do not care, but maybe I care too much, it is starting to lose its flavour and meaning.

Oh I am not talking about myself by the way.

Sometimes it is so sad to see how a friendship can be shattered or threatened if there is a lack of trust, communication or love. And I strongly believe love is still the main essence. Friendships without love – the selfless sacrifice, the willingness to just be there to listen – will just wither.

They are not called friendships, by the way. Maybe just defined as “Oh she’s someone I just happen to know”.

It is easy to start a friendship, but takes a whole lot of effort to keep one from decaying and ultimately end.

And it is really hurtful to see that a seed of distrust or of the inadequacy of attention can bring so much pain too.

Why? I do not understand still.

Why.