The following narrative is pure fiction. Ian is not here right now.

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My world turned upside down. My heart almost stopped beating. I did not know. Maybe I am being perasan. And I do think a lot, so it might not even be what I think it is.

So yeah. Just feel so stupid and feel like punching myself to a pulp.

I cannot even achieve something that I promised.

And it hurts when I know that I cannot stop when all the cardiac muscle of my heart shouted in unison, “Stop! Let me go back!”

Time goes and never waits.

So, as quoted from my friend, “Life goes on. Move on, dude.”

You do not know how many times I wanted to hold you, how I wanted to protect you, how I wished things were different. But I just cannot. Deep down, I feel like there is something I have to do first. Inevitable confusion ensues.

I wake up, it’s a bad dream, no one on my side

I was fighting, but I just feel too tired to be fighting, guess I’m not the fighting kind.

This song really came back and hit me in the head. Haunted me. Keane really has a knack for composing emo songs.

How much I hated myself for hurting you.

God, why me?

Echoing St. Augustine, ironically.

If this is some sort of punishment, so be it.

Just had to deal with the sheer pain.

Ouch.

I finally completed editing all of the photos I have painstakingly uploaded to Flickr. Now happy though I am with the services and features offered, I am dissatisfied with the Uploadr. Crashing every other minute, duplicate uploads, slow speed.. I could go on and on and rant about it all day.

Anyway, adding titles to each and every one of the pictures did evoke some forgotten feelings in me. I forgot how fun it was back then when we went to KK and did all those stuff together. I relish the thought, yet with a sense of sadness and longing that could not be quenched. Those memories are priceless.  I updated an older post and added a more detailed account of what we did. I hope it does justice to the priceless memories.

Included here are some photosets of the trip, updated with titles and captions to better express what we did back then. I hope you enjoy it. I had fun while thinking up various captions for all of them. Some are downright cheeky, whether you could find it is up to you. If you want the full gallery of the trip, go the KK Trip 2009 post here. Enjoy!

Note: Mouseover each photo, you will see an arrow. Click on that to eject your PC’s CD-ROM drive and there will be a grande iced latte with extra cream for you. If you fail to catch the sarcasm, never mind. Click on the arrow to go to the next picture.

Manukan Island

Sapi Island

I never knew Japanese kids could be so.. vile.

Go here to read more and let me know what you think.

I mean, boob grab? Gosh. That is totally wrong, dude.

I have finally decided to use Flickr as my permanent photo-hosting site. On the right hand side you can click on any one picture and go straight to my Flickr page. The photos are a bit old though, never intended to upload them anyway. I shall upload more in the near future.

I decided to switch to Flickr to help keep the hassle of uploading pictures down to a minimum. Sometimes it is very troublesome to upload pictures straight into a blog post. If you have been an active user of Blogger, you’ll know what I mean. The pictures can really move around and it gives me a terrible headache to try to keep them in order.

Anyway, do enjoy. This site is a bit new but I hope things will start to get moving once I settle down and have the time to update.