I know everybody dreads the official start of the summer term tomorrow. Seems like a dark moody cloud that will hang over pretty much the entire next 3 months of our lives.

Lazy to update blog nowadays. I went to UK and it was really fun. Tiring but fun. Saw lots of museums and the typical must-see places. Tower Bridge, Big Ben, Buckingham Palace, yada yada.

Hectic schedule and busy lives. Dissection in month and it will cover twice the amount of stuff than the one in winter term. Starting to panic a little.

I should start revising soon but really no mood nor will to do so.

Everybody says that in the first year, starting summer, hell will break loose.

I just hope I have enough energy left in me to stand firm against the tide.

As people grow, they learn things. And we all know that no man is an island. Everybody needs someone who can be counted on in times of difficulties. That is how the term “friend” came to be. I personally think, however, that the word means different things to different people.

People run away when they are afraid. Fear of the unknown, fear of insecurity and fear of loneliness. We run, hoping that the problem will go away. Sadly most of the time, it does not. I had to learn this the hard way.

When times go bad, many rely on friends and hope they can stay throughout the difficulties. It is worse if the problem arises between friends. I had the unpleasant experience and the scars remain until today to remind me. Yet, as are all things in life, the most wonderful things come in guises that we least expect. That friend went on to become one of my closest friends today.

Friendships endure storms, and at the end of it, if they survive, the bond becomes stronger. Ever wondered why there is a ’ship’ in ‘friendship’? Like a real ship, to steer through the storm, all that it requires is teamwork. You need the captain and the crew. Both cannot work without the other. Friendship is a teamwork game.

Somehow, my mind fails to make the words express what I wanted to say. I realise that, the world is a much better place to live in if people just take everything as a stoic fact of life. And sometimes that involves stepping back, looking at the bigger picture and have the courage to laugh at yourself before inhaling deeply and trudge on, slowly, one step at a time.

I just passed biophysics and got credit for Anatomy and Czech recently. Praise the Lord!

It is really amazing sometimes, when you feel that there is nothing you can do and hopelessness and despair overwhelms the soul, and yet when the time comes, the Lord provides sustenance and His grace is more than enough to help you pass. I really thank Him for blessing me with favour with the biophysics professor. I really had no idea how to answer 2 out of 3 questions but luckily I still passed.

So now, there is only Cell Biology left and after that I am free for 4 weeks. Going to UK during the holiday, but feel really lazy to plan for it right now. Nowadays I just stay at apartment, going online, playing PC game (Dragon Age:Origins is awesome by the way) or just sleep most of the time.

It might be just me, but lately I noticed as if people around me are suddenly getting together out of the blue. My friends back in Malaysia are together. Two of my classmates finally got together recently after 1 year of pretending-the-thing-doesn’t-really-exist. Naturally, everyone was excited but the novelty wears off after some time. What, Cupid suddenly has too much free time?

Life is good, I am enjoying every moment of my time here. Whee..

Sometimes I do wonder whether we have grown up or not. It seems and still feels like we are all still children.

These few days, I lost all sorts of feelings inside me, the only thing remaining is stoicism. The defiant feeling that stares at the monster called Pain in the face and shouts “You can’t hurt me you lil’ $*U)@!*($”

Human relationship. Fickle? Fragile, as my friend puts it. Or even meaningless. I am referring to friendship. Not that I do not care, but maybe I care too much, it is starting to lose its flavour and meaning.

Oh I am not talking about myself by the way.

Sometimes it is so sad to see how a friendship can be shattered or threatened if there is a lack of trust, communication or love. And I strongly believe love is still the main essence. Friendships without love – the selfless sacrifice, the willingness to just be there to listen – will just wither.

They are not called friendships, by the way. Maybe just defined as “Oh she’s someone I just happen to know”.

It is easy to start a friendship, but takes a whole lot of effort to keep one from decaying and ultimately end.

And it is really hurtful to see that a seed of distrust or of the inadequacy of attention can bring so much pain too.

Why? I do not understand still.

Why.

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And happy 2010!