It is now less than 2 weeks before we depart, and I am starting to feel a bit apprehensive about leaving. Sad? Maybe. Excited? Definitely. Nervous? Oh boy, you have no idea.
I went to KL recently with my parents to get my stuff. You would not believe the sheer amount my dad spent. Kinda felt bad about it. New laptop, camera, cellphone.. plus some necessities like luggage bags, winter clothes etc.

Only today did the sudden realization that I am leaving soon hits me.

I feel really lazy lately. Lazy to write, lazy to think, lazy to blog. Lazy to keep working on something I am supposed to be working hard on. Whenever I feel like wanting to pick up where I left off, my mind would say “Bah what does it matter, you are not going anywhere and you will never succeed.” Sadly I kind of agree with that thought.

The kind of nagging feeling really bugs me and I dislike it.

Have I mentioned I bought my first original PC game? In my years of PC gaming? Finally, piracy shows its ugly face as game developers create ever more difficult method of game protection that is harder to crack. Even if those hackers managed to crack the protection, the resulting game is cacat-ed. Which was what happened with Red Alert 3. After getting my hands on it via torrent download, I found out the cutscenes and cinematic videos (which Red Alert saga is famous for) cannot be played. There goes the exciting, albeit cheesy yet hugely amusing experience of playing RA.

So since I am bored, lazy to work on the aforementioned business, I decided to purchase an original game via online. Cost me RM139 but it arrived a day later. Talk about efficiency. The original game offers top-notch quality, as expected. So I spent the past few days blasting Allied forces and building my Soviet army.

So the moral of the story is, you get what you paid for. Money = quality + hours of fun, free = illegal + guilty conscience + crappy & crooked game. They should have taught us that in high school.

Yee haa. This is why I want to make some pocket money – to fund my desires without feeling guilty about it. To have that kind of financial freedom, knowing I can spend on things I want without feeling fear.

But let’s get back to that some other time. I am so lazy and tired right now, all I can think about is a good night’s sleep and the warm bed. zzz..