Feels really good to be back. They say home is where the heart is, and I am obliged to agree. What more with the sumptuous food. I have been really free lately. Nothing to do at home. My daily routine lets me have more free time, too much free time that I in fact do not know what to do.

A lot of my close friends have left for university. So it gets worse in the afternoons when I am alone at home. The Internet is my only lifeline. I would go restless when the Internet speed suddenly drops and becomes almost non-existent. Speaking of which, after almost 1 year of surfing speeds in excess of 8Mbps, coming back here feels like Malaysia is some Stone Age country in terms of Internet availability and speed. TM should really buck up. =.=” then again my home is still on the 512Kbps plan.

512Kbps = omg. 8Bps = OMG on the other end of the spectrum.

Anyway, going to KL soon. Cannot wait to see my siblings, and I really miss PJ. I like the place, and I have no idea why. Maybe it is because of the fond memories of my sister driving me around and trying all the kopitiam there. *drool*

And really excited to see how our new condo apartment looks like. =D

Just like that, a month has flew past and it felt like only a week. Why does time go by at an exponential rate ==”

Really thank God for His grace.. kinda amazing when I think that I could pass anatomy. Almost failed with that terrible professor.

First year of medicine completed. Feels really amazing, because God has been with me all these while. Through troubled times and joyful times, His strength and comfort was all I needed. My sustainer, my water of life, my shield..

Going back soon. Hmm haven’t started packing my bags though.

Today I woke up early and dragged myself around the house to start the mammoth task of cleaning it. Vacuum, mop, sweep, wipe, wash.. First the kitchen, then the toilet, then the bathroom, then my room, then the hallway.. I think my house is quite habitable now. Especially pleased with the entrance area. It used to be a netherworld of shoes and stockings and boxes. I bought shoe racks and arranged everything properly. Hope it stays that way.

Then cooked lunch and had some friends over. Ate, talked, hung out.

Now that I think of it, really wondered how I could manage to do all that in 1 morning. Really tired now though.

Hmm.. few more days left in Prague. What to do, what to do..

Closing with this song.. Really nice.

Passed my Histology exam last week. My examiner was Professor Martinek (luckily). I got relatively easy questions, thank God. We had a good discussion session, and all the questions that I could not answer were those that are not in the syllabus. So thankfully, I think I did my best. Got a very satisfactory mark and the best thing was that Professor Martinek gave this comment:

“You are very good. You can consider becoming a tutor next year. You can find the information on the website and apply with Doctor Becke.”

=D thank you, Lord.

I hope I can do better in Anatomy. So far, my progress is really slow and I am kinda screwed if I continue at this pace. Lots of questions to cover. 10 more days to cover 180 questions. Oh God.

But I just want to glorify Him and let my parents be proud, so I will try my best.

I want to be able to go home, hug my parents and let them know that their son has finished 1st year of medicine successfully.

God, lend me Your strength. =)

“So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shakin’ like a leaf
You have been King of my Glory
Won’t you be my Prince of Peace”

Stumbled across this song when I was blog-surfing. Should be revising now but somehow my thoughts drifted off.

Thought about Kuching, and how I miss Malaysian food. Kolo mee, Sarawak laksa, teh C peng..

How I would  go to the kopitiam every morning with my mum and have breakfast while reading newspaper (sound so apek, I know).

All the more reason to study harder now, eh? I do not relish the idea of not being able to pass the exams. By God’s grace, I pray I can. Really, seriously praying that I can pass and go home. 1 year of being abroad definitely makes the heart grow fonder of home.

Ah, home.

Still, I am shaking like a leaf, figuratively. Less than 10 days to my first major exam, and I am still struggling to finish my revision. Just have to try my best. I really wanna shine for His glory and not let Him, my family and my friends down.

Just have to try.

Go, Ian.

Seriously need a breakthrough in my life right now. A revolution, or some sort of cleansing fire to purge me from inside out.

Lord, You know me best
This faltering soul needs a rest
To the end, it is You whom I’d follow
To fill this dark, lifeless empty hollow

I need Your living water, Your joy, Your fire
To please You is my heart’s true desire
Let me not run towards earthly evils
Nor stumble in my quest to best the devil

Father, Your holy strength is all I seek
Help me, Lord, for I am weak
A broken heart is all I have
Heal me, Abba, in You I’m safe

I really cannot do this alone.. I am tired of being mediocre, tired of being bound to senseless thoughts, I really want to shine for Your glory.

I know only You can fill the hole in my heart, O God..